Wow. I can honestly say I have had such a strange week. Let’s just say I experienced a few days of anger, irritability, restlessness, violence, random crying and outbursts, along with hyperactivity, non-stop laughing/giggling, hypersensitivity, and just extreme immaturity. I went through a manic episode that really made me stick out to close family and friends. I say “stick out” because they saw a very ugly side of me which was filled with so much emotion and frustration. I know that being bipolar is no excuse for my actions. Anyone who has experienced this may know that feeling of guilt, confusion, sadness and regret that follows these bizarre behaviours. I thought I was doing so much better at controlling my emotions, but I’ve been lying to myself I guess.
So, I saw my psychiatrists earlier this morning and after talking with her she came to a very controversial conclusion for me. Conclusion= Let’s try new medication for Callie! My doctor is extremely helpful and has never put me on medication that has caused serious side effects/negative effects or what not. We’ve tried a few different medications for my mood this past year. Valproic Acid and Lamictal (Lamotrigine). The valproic acid wasn’t working and doing the job. The lamictal is what I’ve been taking for the past couple months, along with other meds. But, the medication just doesn’t seem to be getting the job done, ya know? My doctor suggested I try Lithium for my bipolar disorder. While I’m not totally against this, I’m not quite sure if I’m comfortable with trying new medication, especially lithium. If you or anyone you personally know has/had experience with this drug, then I’d realllly appreciate some feedback on how it effected them.
I’ve always been pretty open-minded when it comes to finding the right medication. I never imagined I’d be told I could benefit from lithium though.. Why does “Lithium” have such a scary tone to it? Is it just me?
Lithium. How am I suppose to have faith in this medication when I hear so much negativity about it? I feel lots of anxiety and pressure over the situation. My brother, who doesn’t fully understand my mental health issues and diagnosis, said, “Don’t start taking that. That’s what they give to people who they give up on..”. I’m not mad that he made this comment, but it definitely stirred up lots of questions and confusion. All I want is to continue proper treatment so I can live a stable life despite my disorder. Everyone has different effects and reactions to medications, some good, some bad. I’ve read some people greatly benefit from lithium. Hopefully, I can benefit from it as well. Guess I’ll never know if I don’t try. If you have any advice/comments/questions that may help me, I would greatly appreciate it!! 🙂